I really messed up because I had drank too much. I love the man who has been put in jail because of me and I do not remember what happened. We have a very special kind of relationship that only me and him would understand. I love him so very much and I want to help but I do not know how. He got an aggravated assault charge because of me but our relationship allows it. We both understand so if he hit me or choked me, how do I make the judge understand that its just the way we do things and That I enjoy it. I do not want to have to explain this in open court. Please help me!

You did not mess up. Drinking that ends up with violence is why there are jails. People who do not know better and need to be caged to protect those that beat their "loved ones". This is not something that will play well in front of a judge.You are not going to get the opportunity to say this in open court, and probably not smart to say it at all. The national pulse on domestic violence is not offering high tolerance, either.  If your man drinks and beats you, he should and will spend time behind bars. Civilized societies are set up to protect people from this behavior. Routine drunken violence can and does lead to more than cuts and bruises, it will escalate until the results worsen and even death. You are in an unhealthy situation and the sooner you recognize that your feelings for him are a dependency that is never going to get better. You deserve better than to expect to be beaten. Get away while you can, get help and find someone that can be in a relationship that is void of violence.